Photo taken by: Cristina Licon (my daughter)
Wow, I can’t believe it has almost been a whole year since I
last wrote in my blog. So many things have gotten better and a lot has changed
for the better. I have officially relocated to an Island right outside of
Houston, Tx! It has been by far the toughest transition in my adult life but
has also been worth the pursuit of my happiness. A lot of people live a “don’t
ask don’t tell” type of a life, some live a very public lifestyle. I, on the
other hand had decided in 2011 I was going to start a blog to share the
different struggles, challenges and accomplishments a single Mother/Woman goes
thru behind the scenes of following her dreams in the Entertainment Industry. A
“Started from the bottom now we here”, concept…lol! Although I am not exactly
where I want to be in my life, I am definitely on the right path and have made
some sacrifices to get to where I am now. To start off, the past few months have
been very tough to stay afloat, all the bills especially around the holidays
when I was back in Illinois. I had to do what I had to do to get by and have a
Christmas for the family so I put SC Promotions on hold and pawned my
equipment, I’m talking over $4,000 worth of what I had work so hard for. But at
the moment it was what would make everything fine and I knew I wasn't going to
lose it because I didn't ask for much.
In the mean time, I planned a trip to Texas with the Twins
to bring in their 14yrs old B-Day and my 30th. Plane tickets are not
cheap, so off we went on the Grey Hound Bus. We left all our worries behind for 2 weeks and had a blast doing it. Seeing the Sunrises and Sunsets of the South,
the skyscrapers of the major cities we pass threw We met some great people and weird
people on our journey. It was def the BEST road trip I've had in a longtime and
one full of lifetime memories. While we were on what some people called “vacation”
it wasn't all fun and games for me. My mission was to set everything up for my
official departure of my hometown. I gave the Twins a tour of the High School,
looked at our future apartment, I also had set up a few interviews with
employers. When I returned to the QC I had found out I lost all my equipment
because I was behind on a couple of payments. I felt completely worthless in
the things I love to do. In my mind I told myself everything has to happen for
a reason all this bad the good is coming.
My life in the QC has not always been bad, negative or
depressing. There was a time in my life I said to myself “I will never leave Rock Town I always said “I will rep the QC so hard I’m going to make sure we
get put on the map” but certain experiences and a particular relationship I had
encountered in the beginning stages of my entertainment career would question
and effect the way I felt about my passion and my area as well.
Sometimes
we look or depend on others, and thru them we try to find our happiness. You find that the person that helped you find
what made you happy or help you discover the things you enjoy, doesn’t always
work out. Most of all you find that it isn't always all about or shouldn't be revolved
around the person that helped you find it. I had eventually gave up everything
I was good at, loved to do, and the things I wanted to learn more of all
because the relationship that had ended. I found myself very angry at the industry
for being the way it was, the way people think the entertainment lifestyle is
suppose to be.
It made me angry at my area for not supporting me anymore (so I thought and
felt). I was going thru the worst down in my life and I thought I was never going
to recover from it and never be able to do what I knew best.
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